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I can understand the "ick" factor - putting this much of oneself online, without any contextual filter, embodies a level of intimacy unusual with strangers. I don't think it's weird to find it discomfiting seeing notes about machine learning side by side with relationship advice. It feels like a bit much from one guy. But I think it's very unfair to say it paints a very bleak picture of his life. I jumped straight to…
"Maintain eye contact." Well, you naturally want to look a woman in the eyes if you are genuinely attracted to her, it's hard to resist. If you need a manual on maintaining eye contact, you probably just want to have sex with somebody, if not with this woman, than with another one. The creepy part is that this section in wiki teaches you to simulate feelings you don't actually have in order to get laid and this direc…
Unfortunately, this has resulted in me never having had a relationship, despite being well into my 30s now.
I have close female friends who enjoy my company, so I know I’m not completely repulsive to women. I don’t think I come across as creepy or desperate (I don’t even particularly care about sex). I just never learned the necessary skills for starting a relationship. I wouldn’t know what the early stages even looked like.
The likely future for me, if I don’t change something, is that I never find a partner. I’m not lonely or anything, I’m just worried that I’m missing out on an important part of the human experience. And I’m not sure how to remedy the situation without learning to fake what appears to come naturally to everyone else.