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One thing a high ACE score did for me was make me an irresistible force, even as it seemed to turn the rest of the world into immovable objects.
I pulled myself back up these year, don't have any holes in my CV and still have a job that pays enough so that I can put stuff aside. Which I'm taking as a win.
I do have some friends left that I can trust, which I take as a win.
Currently don't have a partner, but at least I not only recovered from the last break up, but I also got something slowly brewing that could become something or atleast another good friend. Taking that as a win.
Middle aged and most health problems are manageable or in progress about getting better. Taking this as a neutral.
Could have been in a much better space in life if specific people wouldn't have maliciously against me and I wouldn't have taken the risk on the one member I mentioned already. But I also could easily be, and see others, even some of my friends, in worse places.
So I think, I did quite alright.
Seriously wishing you best to all of you.
I have a score of 5. I was in my district's GT program [0] from 5th grade until graduation (I only mention this since you said "gifted" in the title and this is the most "official" proof that I have). I failed many classes in high school (algebra, chem, physics, English) mostly from lack of effort. I had a lot of trouble attending class during high school and dealt with depression. I went to college a couple of state…
Just know that relationships at work can be fleeting. They could leave, you could leave. The best work friends you have, you might stay in touch. You'll both look back on your time together fondly. But lasting relationships aren't usually found at the workplace. (Though they _can_.)
And absolutely don't seek fulfillment from an employer. You're fulfilling them - their needs, wishes, and goals. They're fulfilling contractual obligations to you through your bank account just as you're fulfilling your work obligations to them through your efforts.
Fulfillment comes from acceptance of who you are, personal appreciation of what you're good at, and doing things for your own personal satisfaction - not because it's demanded of you by someone else. Honestly, just look how far you've come. That's an accomplishment in and of itself and is worthy of appreciation. Nobody will ever tell you when "you've arrived" (other than your GPS). It comes through personal realization that you're a grown adult now, you're charting your own course in life, you can go where you want and do what you want. You're where you are because of your own actions. If you ever find yourself truly loathing where you are, you can change it. Finding contentment with where you are in life (geographically, financially, etc) is up to you. Don't like it, you can change it. When you say "this is where I want to be" will you begin to find contentment.
Honestly most of the abuse I suffered happened at school, as the autistic "gay" kid I was constantly bullied and there was no interest on the part of school staff to do anything about it.
When I was 16 I fell into a nicer crowd but they drank and partied a lot and I ended up dropping out in grade 12. Got work as a computer technician, did that for a decade or so, moved on to other stuff.
The autism has been a real struggle that has become more challenging with age, and the memories of abuse do haunt me.
This is the first time I've heard of an ACE score; I had to look up what it stood for: https://www.christineortollcharity.org/post/adverse-childhoo... I suspect I'm not the only one here in this boat.
It’s defined in the link at the end of the post.
A self-destructive defeatist nihilistic attitude is easy to cultivate, especially among the bastards of the gifted.
The larger the expectations, the harder it is for some to appreciate progress, and easier it is to not try at all. A self-destructive defeatist nihilistic attitude is easy to cultivate, especially among the bastards of the gifted.
How do you know if you're gifted?