Sometimes, I think about what I really want. What I want most in the universe, for myself. There's plenty I want for everyone else. I seldom let myself think about what would be good for me lately. Sometimes, like tonight, I do know what I want for myself. It's impossible, but it's my greatest desire for my life. I want to be "uplifted". I want my brain capacity to be expanded by orders of magnitude. I want to unders…
I oscillate between this (having an expanded brain capacity) and the exact opposite (a more limited brain capacity, the ability to take things one at a time, be eternally optimistic, not have your mind race all the time, sleep instantly when you lie down).
Yet, there's this piece inside me that tells me that "the only way out, is through".