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I was in tech for over 20 years, and went from being good at my job/successful to being permanently disabled. My entire life was wired around providing for my family and supporting everyone around me both financially, and via my success. I've lost that identity, and despite extensive therapy, meds, etc. I still haven't found myself yet. I know I'll be okay, however. Stay frosty. Things will work out. Cheers!
I have that identity, ie being the pillar of stability and support for those around me. One thing I worry about is getting a stroke or become blind, paralyzed or similar. Having lost people around me or seen them fall seriously ill , made me realize things can change so quickly. I admire ppl like yourself who keep going. Or people like Paul De Gelder, who lost the majority of their limbs and then just keep going and…
He's been in an intensive care neuro unit for the past month. I visited about 10 days ago and he was having trouble talking, and... I suspect it might be long lasting or permanent.
We'd just spoken the Friday before, and had a meeting planned that morning. It all changed instantly, and there's no going back. It shook me up some, and I'm not affected at all, really, but seeing this happen to someone you know directly is... hard to take (for me anyway).