I have a lot of thoughts. Also senior with ~10yoe. I am going to try to be helpful because you seem like you are really struggling. I am going to arm chair psychologist very intensely right now, so take what I say with a gigantic grain of salt. A lot of the times stuff like this can be from our environments. There could be some one currently affecting your self esteem, and maybe you have gotten used to it. This could…
> If that is the case you have to learn to let it go.
Yeah I totally agree. I'm hoping councilling sessions, CBT and journalling will help to reinforce this attitude. And thank you for the jounalling prompts. I've jotted them down and will be trying them over the next few weeks.
Funny you mentioned music, I just started learning and it has been great fun. I agree about finding something to obsess about that makes you happy.
Thank you once again!