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What happens after death? Do you simply cease to exist? What happens to your mind and soul? I'm not a religious person but sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night thinking about this. It's such a weird feeling when you think deeply about it. I try and not think too much about it.
* Unemployed for 2 years
* 35, single due to unemployment
* I feel lucky; no kids to torture with this misery
* Mortgage ~= 209K euros
* Thinking of ways to make a living
* Companies avoid hiring me for some reason and they simply reply back with an "overqualified" email.
* If I was given the opportunity to change profession, what would be the ideal job for me?
* OCD, Highly Sensitive Person (HSP), introvert by nature. Now that's a deadly cocktail!
* Have zero friends to go out, plus living in the mountains with parents (thank you financial recession)
* Bloody vampires (mosquitoes) around the room, they are everywhere!
* Remembering things I did when I was 6 or 7 years old and feel embarrassed now. It happens all the time...My only daughter stopped breathing and turned blue 3 days after she was born, and I, lucky to have attended a first aid course just 3 weeks prior to that, was able to perform CPR and make her regain consciousness. She's 14 months old now and perfectly healthy, but the horror of those minutes where she was dying in my hands still haunts me. It's getting better, but every now and then my brain briefly relives those mom…
Hmm, let's see what keeps me up all night. * Unemployed for 2 years * 35, single due to unemployment * I feel lucky; no kids to torture with this misery * Mortgage ~= 209K euros * Thinking of ways to make a living * Companies avoid hiring me for some reason and they simply reply back with an "overqualified" email. * If I was given the opportunity to change profession, what would be the ideal job for me? * OCD, Highly…
Let's start: Do you train ?
Not being able to make enough money. As I lived in extreme poverty in my childhood (and all that changed thanks to online MOOCs). I now work as remote SE and I have around $10k in savings. I am graduating with robotics and AI masters degree. But I always fear that I will lose all my money and be poor again. I literally prefer dying than being poor again. The worst days of my life, I couldn't have a proper childhood b…
I worry about not being brave enough to quit my day job (developer) and develop the app that I KNOW would be successful if executed properly. Also, not being able to build a family later if I fail in my next venture. I'm 31 and feel the pressure to build a family somehow.
Why no family after next venture ? A friend of mine started creating a baby at 50.
Doing a side project (open source) is what keeps me up at night. I don't know why, I just push hard myself at least there is one commit a day. Beside that, I think random things a lot. I always waste my night to think about it rather than plan or take an action. I worry about my health. My sleep time is decrease. I have to wake up in the morning and then go to office. When my sleep time is not enough, I wouldn't focu…
That a history of trauma and lack of stable attachments in my life has but one likely outcome: The eventual end of my life by my own hands. I see a therapist regularly, but I've always had this sense of being a broken individual who is always a few steps behind everyone else. It feels hopeless and definitely keeps me up at night.
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That looks to be a potential solution. Thank you. I will make sure not to have snack foods in the cabinets that are able consumed without cooking (e.g. chips, cookies, etc.) I only keep rice, pasta, and sauce in the cabinets. I could also lock the key in my mailbox before I go to sleep, then grab it in the morning.
Hmm, let's see what keeps me up all night. * Unemployed for 2 years * 35, single due to unemployment * I feel lucky; no kids to torture with this misery * Mortgage ~= 209K euros * Thinking of ways to make a living * Companies avoid hiring me for some reason and they simply reply back with an "overqualified" email. * If I was given the opportunity to change profession, what would be the ideal job for me? * OCD, Highly…
Damn dude, that's messed up (sorry). Assuming you're a programmer, can't you make a `incremental persistent improvment` program ? Like fixing stuff 1 by 1. Let's start: Do you train ?
I was never given the opportunity to master a language and I have been experimenting with programming since 2003, always at an academic level.
On the other hand, as I say "what you know or think you know, has nothing to do with reality".
When you say train, you mean exercising and such? No, the only thing my body can handle is walking. When I exercise or do any other form of physical activity, I get sick easily and takes me a whole week to recover.
Now about incremental persistent improvement, I do my best to improve myself. To give you an idea, I was surrounded by negative people and decided to cut ties with nearly all of them to save myself from pessimism. I still have a long way to go, but I'm getting there.