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Re: Ask HN: Why keep living?

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Post by cogburnd02 »

an_tie_hero wrote: post #14
cogburnd02 wrote: post #10

Call this number right now. Right now. 1 (800) 273-8255

I will not be calling any strange number until I've found a way to make truly anonymous phone calls (e.g. something in the realm of RedPhone + onion routing like Tor).

Eh, okay I get what you mean, then at least read this; it's gotten me through some tough times:

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

Re: Ask HN: Why keep living?

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Post by exacube »

I think it's very important to understand and accept that what you are feeling is not a normal state. I would say try to think focus your efforts on arriving at the normal state; of being able to feel pleasure and happiness. Depression is well within the range of human emotion, but you must understand the other parts of the range, and work towards them! As it has already been said, it sounds like what you're feeling is chemical, and you should try to address that -- you can't easily rationalize depression away if its in fact chemical.

BTW, I am very happy to hear that you've been helping the needy and being selfless in general :-)!

Re: Ask HN: Why keep living?

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Post by an_tye_h3ro »

cogburnd02 wrote: post #21
an_tie_hero wrote: post #14

Earlier quoted context omitted.

I will not be calling any strange number until I've found a way to make truly anonymous phone calls (e.g. something in the realm of RedPhone + onion routing like Tor).

Eh, okay I get what you mean, then at least read this; it's gotten me through some tough times: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

Post limit hit. New account, it is! (Also, Tor :D)

I've actually already read this before, years ago when I was at my worst.

Re: Ask HN: Why keep living?

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Post by halov »

an_tie_hero wrote: post #4
WoodenChair wrote: post #2

Please seek a mental health professional/suicide hotline/tell a family member/tell a friend/move somewhere you feel better/do anything to get out of this state. That said, there are many good reasons to stay alive: love, pleasure, personal connections, contentment, spirituality. You may not have any of these now, but you must acknowledge the possibility that they will happen for you in the future. Even people in the…

""" ... a mental health professional ... """ I'm afraid that I can't afford that option financially. I probably won't be able to in the immediate future (next 5 years), either.

It's important that you are not alone with these thoughts. You need someone to talk with you, the person that would understand how you feel and be willing to listen. Then they can share their views with you as well. As previously mentioned, it doesn't have to be a professional - could be a friend, a family member.

If you feel there is no-one or you need more people - I am willing to give you my contact info.

Re: Ask HN: Why keep living?

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Post by mc_hammer »

been there and heres the shortcut: just work out until you feel better, it will take 1-2 mo but the feeling is really undescribably worth it and amazing

there are still cool things you can do: skydiving, bungee jumping, fly a plane, surfing, buy a motorcycle

Re: Ask HN: Why keep living?

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Post by quailman »

This sounds exactly like my situation to a T.

I'll be straightforward: I'd love to chat -- anonymously of course -- in the hope that we both might benefit. I cooked up a GMail account just for that reason, which you can find in my profile.

I'll monitor it for the next day or so if you'd accept the offer.

Re: Ask HN: Why keep living?

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Post by corin_ »

Dear OP, your second user account (an_tye_h3ro) is getting auto-killed, which you won't notice while logged in, so only people with showdead enabled can see comments from that account. I've sent an email to HN about it but they're probably fast asleep right now. Maybe see if you can post on the original throwaway again?

Additionally, there's a dead comment from streetwiseherc you might want to read which will show up if you enable showdead in your profile

Hope you feel better soon

edit: I see you noticed just before I commented and posted asking why you've been shadowbanned - FYI, it's an automatic thing if HN detects a new account from the Tor network. Mods will normally undo the ban once they notice, if they think it isn't deserved.

Re: Ask HN: Why keep living?

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Post by soboleiv »

TLDR: check out vipassana meditation - it's free and I use it to stay calm.

I'm also from a country without great access to health care(Ukraine) :)

My experience is about remembering the moment in my life where I was lying on the floor, then saying in rattling voice "I've decided to live" and getting on my feet. Not sure what was the reason to live before that :)

Now it's probably more about things to look forward to. Mine thing is hanging out with children(they're so energetic!). If you're on hacker news, you probably know some programming, if so maybe volunteering as a teacher for an orphanage can be a nice thing to do?

Re: Ask HN: Why keep living?

#30

Post by soboleiv »

TLDR: check out vipassana meditation - it's free and I use it to stay calm.

I'm also from a country without great access to health care(Ukraine) :)

My experience is about remembering the moment in my life where I was lying on the floor, then saying in rattling voice "I've decided to live" and getting on my feet. Not sure what was the reason to live before that :)

Now it's probably more about things to look forward to. Mine thing is hanging out with children(they're so energetic!). If you're on hacker news, you probably know some programming, if so maybe volunteering as a teacher for an orphanage can be an inspiring thing to do?

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