You deserve a compliment for saving $2m. As DrScump & icedchai suggest you do HAVE some easy options. From your narrative, I get the impression that you have not received professional therapy. If that is the case, then you should really get some competent help. A dependancy on gaming is not a good sign. Here's my take: You have a professional degree and are able to earn a good income (as your savings attest) you coul…
I am in professional therapy right now, someone who specializes in personality disorders, so right up my alley. I am not dependent on gaming anymore, I quit all of that cold turkey. My degree was in oil and gas, and that industry is in the shitter and when I quit, I told myself I would die on the street trying to do something else rather than go back. I don't respect the leaders in that industry, I don't like the goa…
Your comment: >> I just don't care much about polls and stuff. For what every big time entrepreneur has done, noone thought they could pull it off.
The same is true of Lottery Winners. The odds of winning the lottery are around 1 in 14million (depending on the exact style of lottery). Yet every single week, someone wins the lottery. Simple statistics determines that you will die before you ever win the lottery, yet for ~50 people a year, that was untrue. We hear a LOT about those people. We never hear from the millions of people who play the lottery every week and don't win. Survivor bias plays havoc with our perception of the odds of winning, and so millions of people part with cash they can't afford to spend in the hope of making it rich.
It's exactly the same with entrepreneurship. We hear a LOT from the success stories. We don't hear from the failures. There's a lot less luck in entrepreneurship, but it's totally common to see two people do more-or-less the same things with the same idea in the same industry, and one of them succeed and one of them fail. It's VERY hard to predict beforehand what the winning move looks like.
So, don't spend your hard-earned cash playing the lottery if what you want is to become "rich and successful". You are already "rich and successful" ($2mm in the bank is rich and therefore successful in most people's eyes).
You have to enjoy the process, the journey, of being an entrepreneur. It has to be the end in itself, or there's no point and you'll just hate yourself more. If you don't enjoy the process of building and growing a business, of hiring and selling and managing and planning, then walk away now.
If you do enjoy it, then don't worry about "big time entrepreneurs". This isn't about that. It's about living life right now, doing what you enjoy right now, rather than looking forward to some mythical point where it'll all be better and you'll be happier, more successful, more respected and more loved.