Earlier quoted context omitted.
I was beloved. By my parents.
Don't give up. Get out and meet people. Friends are easier to find than romance and love from friends is quiet and unflashy and good and powerful. If I misunderstood your situation from your six word post, forgive me.
Ask HN: Can't concentrate to focus, until it's last minute or later
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Re: Ask HN: Can't concentrate to focus, until it's last minute or later
#182One thing I've noticed is that in some people procrastination is some sort of protection system. (Not saying this is what op has, just a discussion point) They seem to feel that most tasks in life are a bit beneath them (of course I can do this course work / assignment / deliver this project / get great grades / ace this interview - I don't really need to try). Then they keep waiting and waiting until there is little…
Re: Ask HN: Can't concentrate to focus, until it's last minute or later
#183One thing I've noticed is that in some people procrastination is some sort of protection system. (Not saying this is what op has, just a discussion point) They seem to feel that most tasks in life are a bit beneath them (of course I can do this course work / assignment / deliver this project / get great grades / ace this interview - I don't really need to try). Then they keep waiting and waiting until there is little…
Re: Ask HN: Can't concentrate to focus, until it's last minute or later
#184As a solo indie game developer, who has to self motivate everyday, here's what I've found: 1. Programming is a completely mental/brain activity as you know, requiring no real physical exertion. So it should be easy to work on code problems all day right? Wrong. 2. The body requires physical exercise of some sort, it is literally how we are architectured, and if you don't move about then the immune system can't functi…
(I fat fingered and accidentally downvoted you -- I completely agree with your comment though.) For [3], just curious if you have tried group yoga classes? I like a lot of the concepts and ideas around yoga, but each time I've tried a class it's been extremely anxiety inducing due to either feeling claustrophobic or struggling to keep up from not knowing the positions (and deductive reasoning leads to frustration fro…
Only go as far into the pose as you feel comfortable, this is meant to be relaxing, and no one starts off flexible enough to do all the poses perfectly! Keep it up over time though and you will improve.
Also for me I do a max of 3-4 yoga stretches over roughly ~5 minutes, then get back up and do work. I might do this about 5x a day.
Re: Ask HN: Can't concentrate to focus, until it's last minute or later
#185One thing I've noticed is that in some people procrastination is some sort of protection system. (Not saying this is what op has, just a discussion point) They seem to feel that most tasks in life are a bit beneath them (of course I can do this course work / assignment / deliver this project / get great grades / ace this interview - I don't really need to try). Then they keep waiting and waiting until there is little…
Maybe I am wrong, but this reminds me of narcissistic personality disorder. Check out the videos of Sam Vaknin on youtube.
Let's break apart the parent's post and compare to what articles on narcissism say:
> most tasks in life are a bit beneath them
However quite a few Overt and Covert Narcissists will tend to feel many tasks at home and in life are beneath them. At work they may avoid and lose interest in long term, hard grind projects, as there is no quick payoff.
Source: http://energeticsinstitute.com.au/narcissism/
Narcissists hate routine. When a narcissist finds himself doing the same things over and over again, he gets depressed. He oversleeps, over-eats, over-drinks and, in general, engages in addictive, impulsive, reckless, and compulsive behaviours. This is his way of re-introducing risk and excitement into what he (emotionally) perceives to be a barren life.
The narcissist feels entitled to more. He feels it is his right – due to his intellectual superiority – to lead a thrilling, rewarding, kaleidoscopic life. He feels entitled to force life itself, or, at least, people around him, to yield to his wishes and needs, supreme among them the need for stimulating variety. This rejection of habit is part of a larger pattern of aggressive entitlement. The narcissist feels that the very existence of a sublime intellect (such as himself) warrants concessions and allowances by others. Standing in line is a waste of time better spent pursuing knowledge, inventing and creating. The narcissist should avail himself of the best medical treatment proffered by the most prominent medical authorities – lest the asset that he is lost to Mankind. He should not be bothered with trivial pursuits – these lowly functions are best assigned to the less gifted. The devil is in paying precious attention to detail.
Source: http://samvak.tripod.com/narcissisttime.html
> (of course I can do this course work / assignment / deliver this project / get great grades / ace this interview - I don't really need to try).
The narcissist constructs a narrative in which he figures as the hero - brilliant, perfect, irresistibly handsome, destined for great things, entitled, powerful, wealthy, the centre of attention, etc. The bigger the strain on this delusional charade - the greater the gap between fantasy and reality - the more the delusion coalesces and solidifies.
Source: http://samvak.tripod.com/journal42.html
> If they get praise/good grade/the job they have proof that they are cleverer than most...
> If they fail, well it's because they didn't try that hard, so their ego isn't damaged.
Self-administered punishment often manifests as self-handicapping masochism - a narcissistic cop-out. By undermining his work, his relationships, and his efforts, the increasingly fragile narcissist avoids additional criticism and censure (negative supply). Self-inflicted failure is the narcissist's doing and thus proves that he is the master of his own fate. Masochistic narcissists keep finding themselves in self-defeating circumstances which render success impossible - and "an objective assessment of their performance improbable" (Millon, 2000). They act carelessly, withdraw in mid-effort, are constantly fatigued, bored, or disaffected and thus passive-aggressively sabotage their lives. Their suffering is defiant and by "deciding to abort" they reassert their omnipotence.
Re: Ask HN: Can't concentrate to focus, until it's last minute or later
#186Earlier quoted context omitted.
I am horrible at lists and calendars. Even if I start keeping a Todo list or an organized calendar or Evernote ideas log, I just stop paying attention to the list eventually. I see how coworkers are constantly looking at their calendar, and that's just confusing to me.
Have you tried a methodology like GTD?
Re: Ask HN: Can't concentrate to focus, until it's last minute or later
#187One thing I've noticed is that in some people procrastination is some sort of protection system. (Not saying this is what op has, just a discussion point) They seem to feel that most tasks in life are a bit beneath them (of course I can do this course work / assignment / deliver this project / get great grades / ace this interview - I don't really need to try). Then they keep waiting and waiting until there is little…
I've noticed the problem in my peers and in myself too. One good remedy is this: http://mindingourway.com/have-no-excuses/ "In refusing to generate an excuse when everyone else is doing so, you violate some unspoken pact of mediocrity"
Re: Ask HN: Can't concentrate to focus, until it's last minute or later
#188Earlier quoted context omitted.
Have you tried a methodology like GTD?
Hadn't heard of it before. Thanks. Researching it and will set some time to setting up the framework. It seems like quite a lot of administrative overhead but I'm willing to give it a shot.
If you don't have time to sit down to read the book right now, here's a nice 15-minute overview - https://hamberg.no/gtd/.
Re: Ask HN: Can't concentrate to focus, until it's last minute or later
#189The "Pomodoro Technique" works for me. http://pomodorotechnique.com/get-started/#how I don't do all the extra stuff with time-tracking that the full method goes into; I just sit for a bit and make a little list of a few Things I'd Like To Do Today, with 6-8 checkboxes (for the total list, not each task) next to them, each representing a 25-minute block of work. Then I take the timer sitting on my desk (it's shaped li…
do you track how many pomodoros you do each day? do you have a daily target?
Yes, usually around 4 of the 6 or so I write down at the day's start.
Re: Ask HN: Can't concentrate to focus, until it's last minute or later
#190As a solo indie game developer, who has to self motivate everyday, here's what I've found: 1. Programming is a completely mental/brain activity as you know, requiring no real physical exertion. So it should be easy to work on code problems all day right? Wrong. 2. The body requires physical exercise of some sort, it is literally how we are architectured, and if you don't move about then the immune system can't functi…
(I fat fingered and accidentally downvoted you -- I completely agree with your comment though.) For [3], just curious if you have tried group yoga classes? I like a lot of the concepts and ideas around yoga, but each time I've tried a class it's been extremely anxiety inducing due to either feeling claustrophobic or struggling to keep up from not knowing the positions (and deductive reasoning leads to frustration fro…
Also keep in mind that some more advanced people in class may be doing a different, but related pose that gives them a stretch that the basic pose no longer does. What matters is that you are feeling a stretch (and not a painful one) in roughly the place the instructor says you are; if you're not, then speak up and ask about it!