I don't think most people are capable of engaging with you with the level of self-awareness needed not to penalize you for being open with them about your history of suicidal thoughts. So you may be better to simply come up with something to paper over the gap: plenty of people travel the world and take a few years off teaching english or trying to start a business. I think you'll be penalized for not fitting people'…
As for not fitting people's ideals... Come to think of it, there's no way to satisfy conditions that are outside of my field of influence (I cannot stay forever young, for example) so I'll have to accept that and carry on.