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Depends on the adversity. If it's slogging through the work week (which is my main adversity these days): My toxic tendency to remain completely independent is about all that motivates me to work. I don't have any real motivation anymore since I have built so many safety nets (financial or otherwise) for myself to handle that vast majority of professional failures.
I go through periods of genuinely thinking I’m capable of greatness, and periods of not caring at all about greatness and just wanting to be happy. Speaking of adversity the last 6 months I’ve: lost a job, split from fiancé of 7 years, got fat, lost a dog, lost an apartment, got diagnosed with adhd, faced strong suicidal ideation, sever depression and nihilism. But fast forward to current day - I’ve got back to the g…
As in The Myth of Sisyphus, doing it just in spite.
I also have a wife and family to take care of.
Depends on the adversity. If it's slogging through the work week (which is my main adversity these days): My toxic tendency to remain completely independent is about all that motivates me to work. I don't have any real motivation anymore since I have built so many safety nets (financial or otherwise) for myself to handle that vast majority of professional failures.
Independent in what sense?
Depends on the adversity. If it's slogging through the work week (which is my main adversity these days): My toxic tendency to remain completely independent is about all that motivates me to work. I don't have any real motivation anymore since I have built so many safety nets (financial or otherwise) for myself to handle that vast majority of professional failures.
But how do you get yourself to do all the cognitively heavy work for your job, day in day out?
The success rate on this for me is not something I can easily explain. Visualization is a hell of a drug, I guess.
You just move forward and survive no matter what. Because all the “simple” alternatives (black void, nothingness, or dark hell of addictions) are way more terrible and/or boring.
Reminding yourself that God most probably loves you and wants the best for you helps sometimes as well.